Sunday, March 4, 2018

Thoughts on Religious Faith

When you believe, 
is it God
that you believe in?
What is God
a name for?

How do you talk about religious faith?
What was it 
that brought tears
to my eyes in choir practice tonight?

I don’t remember.
Does it matter?

Faithbelief—is a state of allowance,
of letting be,
leaving all possibilities open,
not ruling anything out—
as if you could be the rule-maker!

Doubt is defensive—
you don’t want to be taken in.
Going through life as a doubter
was like going through life clenched.
How do you change from doubt to allowance?

Belief is an unclenching.
It’s scary to be unclenched,
to be without defense—
like an opened carcass.
The world can eat you up.


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Bernstein’s Sanctus has the line,

Pleni sunt cæli et terra gloriæ tuæ.He’s left out the word maiestatis
(The world is full of the majesty of thy glory),
but leaving out majesty
seems to make thy glory,
both queer-gendered and plural—
a big improvement for me!