Wednesday, February 28, 2018

Villanelle: Valentine

Discreetly-singing valentine
song played by a tamborine
villanelle that hears Love’s rhymes.
In deep not-prayer or after-crime
Love hollows out Their diamond mine
discreetly-singing valentine.
Pattern of a vanished time
Love rhymes with Love alone, say I,
villanelle that hears Love’s rhymes.
Habitable life, gray husbandman,
beauty no enemy but time,
discreetly sing your valentine.
I, your silly creel-man,
spin shadows vaguely traced in brine
villanelles that hear Love’s rhymes.
Deeply-tasted sorrow-can,
beloved face soon lost as found,
discreetly-singing valentine,
villanelle that hears Love’s rhymes.

Monday, February 26, 2018

Villanelle: What All Words Mean

Can I write a villanelle about my love
(love's name not discreet I should reveal)?
That might be kind of hard.—What rhymes with Love?
Through years of scribbled valentines I strove
and agonized, and now I’ve placed the stele
to scrive a villanelle about my love.
Alas, my love, and dost thou me reprove
(your doughty fisherman with drooping creel)
to pose this query deep—What rhymes with Love?
As relentless as Psyche's ants I'll prove
and into your affections softy steal
by singing a villanelle about my love.
Then we’ll give thanks unto the gods above,
who in our dalliance make themselves real
and help us know the words that rhyme with Love.
And what a never-tasted nectar trove,
when we had lingered at the chastest meal!
I could write my villanelle about my love
when I realized that all words mean My Love.

Always Interested

Disinterested
is a disingenuous
word.
You only say
disinterested when you
want
something—money,
sex, praise, you name it. That is,
you
want something, but
you’re trying to be the
Knight
of Infinite
Resignation
. You're a fraud
and a hypocrite.
Why don’t you just take what you want?
it 
may be there for you if you
ask.
     . . .
No, you’re not a
bit disinterested. But you
know
you’ll receive more if
you wait—gratification
stayed.

Sunday, February 25, 2018

Guns

Most of the police in our country must wish they didn't have to worry
about guns all the time.
Why don't they speak up more?

And, as a society, why

do we want our country to be a place where the police have to worry about guns all the time?

Saturday, February 24, 2018

The Panther, Rainer Maria Von Rilke

JARDIN DES PLANTES, PARIS
The gaze is from the passing of the bars
grown so tired that anything can arrest it—
as if there were a thousand bars,
and behind the thousand bars no world.
The soft course of strong, smooth steps,
drawn into a circle ever-smaller,
is like a dance of strength around a point,
in which a great will stands stunned.
Only occasionally the lids part,
and the eyes look silently up—then an image enters,
ruffles the taut stillness of the limbs,
and in the heart ceases to be.

Friday, February 23, 2018

Homecoming, Paul Celan

Snowfall, thicker and thicker
dove-colors, as yesterday,
snowfall, as if you were still asleep.

Stretching away, heaped white.
Upon it, endlessly,
sledge track of the lost.

Under it, concealed,
hump themselves up,
what so hurt the eyes,
hill upon hill,
invisible.

On each,
fetched home into its today,
an I turned to wood,
a dumb stake.

There: an apprehension,
wailed over by the icy wind,
fastens its dove-, its snow-
colored flag.

Thursday, February 22, 2018

Meet All Goodbyes Head-On, Rainer Maria Von Rilke

Meet all goodbyes head-on, as if they were behind
you, because winter eventually goes by.
Because under winter it is so endlessly winter
that, overwintering, your heart survives entire.
Be always dead in Euridice—, climb singing,
climb praising back under the clean covers.
Here, among the dwindling, be in the richness of left-overs,
be a ringing glass that broke itself in ringing.
Be—and likewise know the non-being proviso,
the infinite ground of your inner vibration,
that you realize completely this one time.
To the used, as to the deaf-and-dumb,
goes the fullness of nature, that unspeakable sum.
Count yourself up in rejoicing and destroy the number.

Wednesday, February 21, 2018

* Blessed Haiku *

I am so blessed by
the new friends I've made! How can
I not die happy?

Want Change! O Be Excited, Rainer Maria Von Rilke

Want change! 0 be excited for the flame.
In it something withdraws from you that flaunts transformation;
the designing spirit who masters the earthly,
in the spin of the dancer loves nothing but the turning point.

What locks itself into remaining is already rocklike.
Is it safe in the protection of inconspicuous gray?
Wait! from afar the hardest warns the hard
Beware! A distracted hammer cocks its arm.

They who pour themselves from the well recognize you
and lead you delicately through this cheerful process,
which often ends with the beginning and begins with the ending.

Every happy place is the child or grandchild of parting
suffered in amazement. And the transformed Daphne,
because she feels her laurels, wants you to change into wind.

Rilke Sonnets to Orpheus, Second Series, Number 12
Wolle die Wandlung. 0 sei für die Flamme begeistert,
drin sich ein Ding dir entzieht, das mit Verwandlungen prunkt;
jener entwerfende Geist, welcher das Irdische meistert,
liebt in dem Schwung der Figur nichts wie den wendenden Punkt.
Was sich ins Bleiben verschliesst, schon ists das Erstarrte;
wahnt es sich sicher im Schutz des unscheinbaren Grau's?
Warte, ein Hartestes warnt aus der Ferne das Harte.
Wehe—: abwesender Hammer holt ausl
Wer sich als Quelle ergiesst, den erkennt die Erkennung;
und sie fuhrt ihn entzückt durch das heiter Geschaffne,
das mit Anfang oft schliesst und mit Ende beginnt.
Jeder glückliche Raum ist Kind oder Enkel von Trennung,
den sie staunend durchgehn. Und die verwandelte Daphne
will, seit sie lorbeern fühlt, dass du dich wandelst in Wind.

Tuesday, February 20, 2018

The Dead Follow Mostly, Rainer Maria Von Rilke

The dead follow mostly a calmly ordered rule, established, 
wide-conquering man, when you first took up hunting
—I know younot just fall and snare but strips of sail
hung down into the hollow karst.

Silently they lowered you, as if you were a sign
to celebrate peace. But then a boy gave the cloth a yank
and out of the hollows the night threw a handful of white,
doves tumbling into the light...
                                               But that too is right.

Far from witnesses is there any hint of regret,
not just from the hunter himself, who proved early
to be competent and vigilant.

Dead is a shape of our wandering mourning...
Clear is the cheerful spirit,
which happens to ourselves.



Rilke Sonnets to Orpheus, Second Series, Number 11
Manche, des Todes, entstand ruhig geordnete Regel,
weiterbezwingender Mensch, seit du im Jagen beharrst;
mehr doch als Falle und Netz, weiss ich dich, Streifen von Segel,
den man hinuntergehangt in den höhligen Karst.
Leise liess man dich ein, als wärst du ein Zeichen,
Frieden zu feiern. Doch dann: rang dich am Rande der Knecht,
—und, aus den Höhlen, die Nacht warf eine Hand voll von bleichen
taumelnden Tauben ins Licht ...
                                                            Aber auch das ist im Recht.
Fern von dem Schauenden sei jeglicher Hauch des Bedauerns,
nicht nur vom Jäger allein, der, was sich zeitig erweist,
wachsam und handelnd vollzieht.
Toten ist eine Gestalt unseres wandernden Trauerns . . .
Rein ist im heiteren Geist,
was an uns selber geschieht .

My Fetish Compartment

Odd thing, this morning
I wanted to put something in my old King Edward
Imperial cigar box,
kept in my sock drawer all these years.
A lot of heavy coins in it—
lid came off a long time ago, the sides collapsed.
So I decided to mend it.
It’s important to me—
my fetish compartment.
So I dumped all the contents on the desk top,
including a miniature leather Imitation of Christ,
with the cover worn off,
a tiny address book, a crucifix,
a pound-weight Medtronic ALLEVIATING PAIN,
RESTORING HEALTH, EXTENDING LIFE medal,
some keys and knives, a St. Christopher necklace,
a booth photo of my sister Mary Catherine,
a photo of my father as a four-year-old.
Three pieces at the bottom: a childhood snapshot
of my first lover Lizzie Lea;
then a page ripped from a notebook and faded,
a kind of mapUp, Up! Up!!! to a cliff’s edge,
then a long long fall
and a tiny figure on the ground running
toward a choice of floating upwards, hair hanging
upside-down beside fly-agaric clouds
up at the level of the cliff again,
or taking a low path through the desert
under the sign of the cross and the relentless sun, fading
into angelic cloud shapes at last;
and finally a small Who Is Guru Maharaj Ji? brochure.
Why do I keep it? The Ji devotee
was my friend Victor.

Monday, February 19, 2018

All Who Try to Resist Her, Rainer Maria Von Rilke

All who try to resist her heave to the machine, as long as
she dares to be her own spirit instead of obeying us.
She cuts the stone more precisely to fit
so that the artist’s hand won’t linger at resplendency.

Nowhere does she wait behind, that we might escape her,
and, oiling herself in her silent factory, she answers to herself alone.
She is life, she thinks she does as well as she can,
who with the same decision orders and builds and destroys.

But existence is still enchanted to us; from a hundred
sources it springs anew, a play of pure
untouchable forces that do not kneel and admire.

Words go soft at the unspeakable...
And music, always new, from the shakiest stones,
in needless space, builds her deified house.


Rilke Sonnets to Orpheus, Second Series, Number 10
Alles Erworbene bedroht die Maschine, solange
sie sich erdreistet, im Geist, statt im Gehorchen, zu sein.
Dass nicht der herrlichen Hand schöneres Zögern mehr prange,
zu dem entschlossenern Bau schneidet sie steifer den Stein.
Nirgends bleibt sie zurück, dass wir ihr ein Mal entronnen
und sie in stiller Fabrik ölend sich selber gehört.
Sie ist das Leben,—sie meint es am besten zu können,
die mit dem gleichen Entschluss ordnet und schafft und zerstört.
Aber noch ist uns das Dasein verzaubert; an hundert
Stellen ist es noch Ursprung. Ein Spielen von reinen
Kräften, die keiner berührt, der nicht kniet und bewundert.
Worte gehen noch zart am Unsäglichen aus ...
Und die Musik, immer neu, aus den bebendsten Steinen,
baut im unbrauchbaren Raum ihr vergöttlichtes Haus .

Sunday, February 18, 2018

Boast, You Judges, Rainer Maria Von Rilke

Boast, you judges, not of expendable torture
and that the iron no longer locks on necks.
No heart is exalted, nonebecause a favorable
spasm of mildness more tenderly disposes you.

What became through time the scaffold pays
back again, like children their toys from an old
former birthday. Into the pure, into the high, into the door-like
open heart, God would step differently,

mercy for real. Would come tremendously and take hold,
shining around, as the godlike are.
More than a wind for the great secured ships.

Not less than the soft, secret allowance,
that wins us silently within
like a quietly-playing child of infinite pairing.


Sonnets to Orpheus, Second Series, Number 9

Rühmt euch, ihr Richtenden, nicht der entbehrlichen Folter 
und dass das Eisen nicht länger an Hälsen sperrt.
Keins ist gesteigert, kein Herz - , weil ein gewollter
Krampf der Milde euch zarter verzerrt.
Was es durch Zeiten bekam, das schenkt das Schafott
wieder zuriick, wie Kinder ihr Spielzeug vom vorig
alten Geburtstag. Ins reine, ins hohe, ins torig
offene Herz träte er anders, .der Gott
wirklicher Milde. Er käme gewaltig und griffe
strahlender um sich, wie Gottliche sind.
Mehr als ein Wind fur die grossen gesicherten Schiffe.
Weniger nicht, als die heimliche leise Gewahrung,
die uns im Innern schweigend gewinnt
wie ein still spielendes Kind aus unendlicher Paarung.

[Someth]ing (Walking to the Dubliner to See the Eddies)


Afraid to turn my
My
Phone recorder on
But its
[Trudge trudge trudge trudge]
What’s needed
To make
My thoughts a performance
But if the recording machine weren’t turned on
Then I wouldn’t be able to retrieve my thoughts
It's a performance
It’s on camera
It’s a media hit
So that’s what the phone recorder does
For me
First registering the fear
Of the performance
That I started with
That I mentioned almost before I even turned the recording machine on
[Trudge trudge trudge trudge]
The fear
The fear the fear the fear
The silence
So that I won’t have to listen to so many gaps
[Pressing the Skip silence button]
And now the gaps aren’t going to be in the recording
So what more is there
Beyond
There to say at all
[Someth]ing the camera on

Friday, February 16, 2018

Why Don’t I Worry About People Stealing My Poems?

I don’t worry about people stealing my poems.

I don’t want to be cynical or snarky about it.
Maybe people do steal them.
I publish most of what I write to a public blog. I’m addicted to my hit count, and a lot of the hits come from Russia.
Should that worry me?
I don’t have a copyright statement on my blog, or on any of the poems, but would that deter the Russian trolls?

Well, ha, I added one - Copyright (c) 2013-present.
Could be, my poems are published in Russia under someone else’s name, and that person gets all the benefit—
the money and glory—
but I guess I think that no one would steal my poems, because they have no theft value—no one could get money for them, or win prestige by claiming ownership.
Should I be bitter about this?
I had a technical writing job once, writing training manuals and help systems for employees of the company that paid me.
I sent stuff out for review before publishing it, but people seldom looked at it much.
One guy gave me my manual back with a paper clip attached for each of his comments—hundreds of comments—my manual came back looking like a porcupine—
but that was just to make sure I never gave him anything to review again.
How do I feel about my work having no theft value?
My co-worker John and I were talking once about how nobody looked at our work. “Perfect freedom, man!” he said.
But I know that a few people do look at some of the poems that I write nearly every day and publish on my blog.
I don’t know how often people actually read them from beginning to end.
But I know that people look at them, and I’m grateful.
Give me the roses while I live, I say.
And you do.

Thursday, February 15, 2018

5.38-Minute Soliloquy

OK I need a poem so here goes
Slippery out
Walking in the street
Looking at my
Red shoe laces
My brown shoes
Asphalt
All the ice over to the side
Snow mounds
Puddles of water
Yeah
Laurel Street
Yeah
Where am I?
Hague and Laurel?
Very beautiful olive-green-painted
Wood-slat siding house
Pretty big probably built
More than a hundred years ago
That’s the neighborhood
So now I’m walking
On the sidewalk, which is
Trickier but I-a
I just tell myself to keep my chin
In front of my feet
And then my
Shoes won’t shoot forward and make my head
Slam
Onto the cement behind me
Which has never really happened to me badly
But could
I know that one of Garrison Keillor’s brothers
Who lived in Madison
Died that way
Many years ago

Just walking on an icy sidewalk
You can die
You can die anytime really
But we think about that all the time I won’t
Go on anymore about that.
Whole bunch of finches
In a trimmed hedge
Whole bunch of em
Lot of finch shit in the snow
Down beneath
Huh
You know I can hear a saw
There’s a real
Real nice saw sound
Sounds almost like a
Gosh it almost sounds almost like a-a
Like a
Paddleboat horn or something
What do you call those things?
Mississippi river boat
Steamboat
Sounds like a steamboat
Horn and there’s Pete’s
Rubbish Hauling
PETE’S
In green lettering

There goes the garbage truck down the street
Now I’m on Prior I think
Getting pretty close to my own street
Ashland
And now I’m passing an apartment building
An old friend from grad school moved in here
A long time ago
And then I never saw her again
She left
She went to Florida or something
I felt bad that I never looked her up
She living so close and all
Not sure why I didn’t
Oh well
Regrets

And more regrets
YES yes yes
You know if I don’t talk
This poem will be shorter
Which is not a bad thing
So I can allow silence
To enter the poem
But if I did how would I
Portray it?
No one will know
Once I've typed these words out
Exactly where the gaps should go
Or how long they should be
There’s 

a


There could be a long long gap
Between any two words
There’s certainly a long long gap
Before the poem starts
That is before I turned on the
Recording machine
I did have that thought
That-a
That became the first line
Even before I turned on the machine
But now I can’t even remember what it was
And then of course a gap after the thing ends
And the recording machine
is turned off.

Monday, February 12, 2018

Haiku, Jorge Luis Borges


*
The vast night
is now no other thing
than a fragrance.
La vasta noche
no es ahora otra cosa
que una frangrancia.

*
Is it or isn’t it
the dream I forgot
before dawn?
¿Es o no es
el sueño que olvidé
antes del alba?

*
The idle sword
dreams of its battles.
Another is my dream.
La ociosa espada
sueña con sus batallas.
Otro es mi sueño.

*
The man is dead.
The beard does not know.
The nails grow.
El hombre ha muerto
La barba no lo sabe
Crecen las uñas.

*
Under the moon
the shadow that enlarges itself
is only one.
Bajo la luna
la sombra que se alarga
es una sola.

*
The old hand
goes on tracing verses
for oblivion.
La vieja mano
sigue tranzando versos
para el olvido.

Friday, February 9, 2018

4.30-Minute Soliloquy

Walking and walking
Before I turned this thing on
I saw and said specks of snow
What do you say?
Brown wooden fence
Ledge
Broken ledge
Broken brick ledge
Knarled bush
Leafless
Knarled bush
Funny lawn sculpure
Squirrel on a log
Squirrel on a tree trunk
Squirrel on a tree trunk
Stop sign
Sound of crows
Sound of my shoes
Crunching the snow
When you’re saying the words,
You’re not really paying attention.
But that’s not because
Things are not really
The words used
To refer to them
Probably
Or maybe they aren’t
They always try to think we
Assume it is
There’s a-a
Beige stucco house
Very lovely stucco
Looks newly-applied
Nicely painted
It’s a big house
1761
1761 Wheeler
There aren’t very many houses on
With Wheeler addresses
Although there’s 1753
On a garage.
Weird
I wonder if it’s really Wheeler
Probably isn’t it’s probably [inaudible]
Whateva!
So
I can certainly rattle on
For a long time
And I can mention things
Like the brown fence posts
But what am I saying?
I’m not really
I’m not really
Referring to fence posts
Or describing fence posts
Cough cough
I’m making you
See fence posts
And you can see whatever
Brown fence posts you like
But unless I’m talking to you
There’s no way for the fence posts
To mean a goddamn thing
Or for anything I say
To have any registration
So
You are the missing part
Of the reference of the words I use
I’m relying on you for them
And you kindly give them to me
Sometimes
But you don’t always have to
Why
You know you’re not
Obligated to
You just do it because
You think I’m kind of a sweet guy
Thank you so much!
I love you
Bye

Thursday, February 8, 2018

Victor, part 1

1.
As a child Victor astonished everyone with his brilliance. 
In the second grade he was already reading
the big, heavy book about the Kontiki voyage,
far above my level.
One day with a cape and wand
he performed magic tricks for show-and-tell,
rehearsed to perfection with his doting mother and older sisters,
who called him Sonny —
his father called him Bud.
I admired his performance with the rest of the class
from my wooden desk
which smelled of
hoof gelatin.
One day
Victor gave me a special gift —
a pen, maybe —
gratuitously, and said something like
“A pen always comes in handy” —
though I’m disappointed that I don’t remember now
exactly what it was
or what he said.
I understood that the gift
was a courtship gesture, intended to convey
a friendly interest.
It was when I joined his mother’s cub scout troop
that Victor and I became best friends.
We ate cream puffs in the back yard in our uniforms,
wolfing the first to be sure of seconds.
One day when we had quarreled,
a group of girls from class told us to shake and make up.
“We don’t shake, we kiss,” Victor said,
and we embraced.
His mother was a nurse at the Pueblo
state hospital for the insane
on the syphilitic ward.
She was great at devising projects.
We made rattles out of orange-painted gourds,
glued handles onto them,
and performed in costumes to
a 45rpm record of “Baby Elephant Walk”
at the annual Cub Scout Jamboree.
We wound copper wire
around Quaker Oats boxes to make short wave radios

a project which bored me.
Once I had to bear colors at a
Scouts night meeting at the American Legion Hall.
Victor bore the Stars and Stripes.
I bore the flag of the state of Colorado.
During the anthem, thinking it would appear more symmetrical,
I saluted my flag instead of his — a mistake
of which I was greatly ashamed.
Victor’s family moved a lot.
After the 4th grade, we no longer attended the same school.
Every couple of weeks or so Victor would call me.
At that time he lived on a corner of 29th Street, next to a gas station.
The station manager was a wiry, laconic fellow,
who called Victor “Shit-For-Brains.”
In spite of his station uniform,
I thought of him as a beatnik type.
He once told us about hearing Peter, Paul and Mary at Red Rocks Theater.
He put his thumb and forefinger close together to show us
how itty-bitty they looked from where he was sitting.
Victor and I played Three Flies Up on the parkway across the street.
There were clusters of bushes we could hide in and pee
we called the “toiletries.”
Everything at that time had a kind of
trailers for sale or rent feel, including
a miniature golf course down the street
with a middle-aged dark-haired woman manager
who was always there in a little hut.
One day we got the idea of offering to vacuum the greens.
We thought we might get five or ten bucks apiece for doing it,
but after we’d worked for hours
and actually cleaned some of the greens pretty well,
all the lady gave us were some free golf tickets.
We’d get burgers at a drive-in called The Joker,
run by another beatnik type
(I seem to remember him in a cylindrical African hat),
who would admonish us not to
put too much ketchup on the French fries.
There was a good pinball machine there
with a green baseball field and players
crouching in their positions with immense gloves.
When you hit a home run, the ball would go splat
against the glass top, then roll under the back wall
and be returned to the pitcher.
Victor had bulldog —
Butch —
who would grab my jeans cuffs in his jaws and shake
me off balance, leaving them wet with his
slimy, smelly drool.
Victor’s father — also Victor —
Victor Hugo Wesley the First —
sat on the shady front porch before dinner,
obese midriff sagging under denim overalls,
emptying Budweiser quarts.
He would run the garden hose onto the roof
so that water would run down the vines
that climbed up the porch screens.
He was a foreman at
the Colorado Fuel and Iron Corporation.
Once the largest steel manufacturing plant west of the Mississippi,
the steel mill was a ruin by the time I was in my ‘20’s.
He despised my father, who was affected and histrionic.
I was afraid of him.
But he filled a small dining room with a bar-sized pool table,
and always had 5 dollars for old Bud.
The garage contained stacks of pornographic
magazines Victor and I snooped through.
It amazes me how much I don’t remember.
For example, I don’t know how often I saw Victor
in the years before junior high when we went to the same school again.
I had other friends,
both neighborhood friends and school friends.
There must have been times when I didn’t see him for a month or more
but I don’t remember missing him.
I would ride my bike to his house.
Once I was distressed and disappointed
when, to punish me for some misbehavior,
my mother forbade one of those trips.
Sometimes one of us would call just as the other was about to,
which we took as evidence of our amazing telepathic sympathy;
though I think that I usually waited for him to call.
I also think I visited his house more often than he visited mine.
When we got together we might go bowling,
or to a movie downtown.
I can remember some movies that I saw with Victor
including Goldfinger, Dr. Strangelove, The Magnificent Seven.
Afterwards we might buy slices of pizza at Woolworths
with fennel seeds in the sausage.
Sometimes as we walked we’d take pleasure
in how unconsciously we stayed in step.
More than once, though, Victor suddenly
vanished. I don’t know where he went, I guess
he’d dart behind a building or a car
and I’d have to wait anxiously for him to reappear.
He sometimes criticized me for becoming too completely absorbed
in a movie or TV show we were watching
instead of, like him,
remaining detached and aware of my surroundings.
As a teenager I was a mass of neurotic
phobias. For example, I hated caterpillars.
Victor once made a point of standing for a long time
watching inch worms crawl up a tree trunk.
I also disliked feet.
“I rather like my feet,” Victor said.
We shared deep thoughts.
This thought of mine Victor acknowledged to be profound.
Religious people often
list the vastly improbable conditions of our existence,
yet we couldn’t wonder about it if
the conditions didn’t hold.
One day we saw a strange white form in the distance,
supernatural and otherworldly.
We walked towards it, and when we reached it
after several blocks, it turned out to be
an old brick wall;
yet the otherworldly feeling remained.
We took turns pretending to fall asleep
and act out dream experiences of
alien abduction or sexual gratification
by thrashing and muttering.
I knew I was only pretending
but wasn’t completely sure he was.
“We don’t care if you believe us or not,
“We just don’t care,”
we intoned in unison to his exasperated sister, Bronwen.
One particular memory that seems like a dream:
We were by ourselves in the 29th street house.
Victor pulled some black-and-white photographs
from behind some books.
They were obscene pictures
of vaginas with various objects inserted —
flashlights and other things.
Usually no faces were visible, but
at one point he grabbed the pictures away and hid them again.
”That’s my sister,” he said.

Sad Departure (Bouncing Around in My Own Small Boat)

God it’s boring
to keep track
of what I eat every day!
I write it in my diary—
Feb 8, 163.1
[on the scale, 
that’s an aside!].
Where does
my voice
dwell?
Bacon, eggs, and toast for breakfast, 800
[calories, that’s an aside too!]—
five pieces of bacon—
but saving fewer than three
would be either wasteful
or disappointing.
Hamburger during my Happy Gnome discussion group meeting
[we don’t meet at the Happy Gnome anymore,
a different kind of aside]—
my voice pecking at the ground like a chicken.
Hamburger had jelly on it, it was bad,
and I gave the fries to Althea, 400
[calories]. Piece of chocolate at about 7:00 [PM]
on my way to my music practice, 200
[calories]. Whole-grain cereal with almonds and yoghurt, 500
[calories]. So that’s only 1900
[calories]. Keep up the good work!
But tomorrow I’ll have to report on
Mike Finley
leaving
the Lawless Poetry group.
We’ll see how that
will have rocked this
small boat I’m bouncing in.

Wednesday, February 7, 2018

Nothing but Death, Pablo Neruda

There are cemeteries that are lonely,
graves full of bones that don’t make a sound,
the heart moving through a tunnel,
in it darkness, darkness, darkness,
like a shipwreck we die caving into ourselves,
as if we were drowning inside our hearts,
as if we lived falling out of the skin into the soul.

And there are corpses,
feet made of cold sticky clay,
death is inside the bones,
like a scraping where there are no dogs,
coming out of bells somewhere, out of tombs somewhere,
growing in the humid air like tears of rain.

Sometimes I see only
coffins under sail,
embarking with the pale dead, with the women who have dead hair,
with the bakers who are as white as angels,
and the thoughtful young girls married to notary publics,
coffins that sail up the vertical river of the dead,
the dark purple river,
moving against the current with sails full of the sound of death,
filled with the sound of death that is silence.

Death comes among all that sound
like a shoe without a foot in it, like a suit without a man in it,
comes and knocks, using a ring without a stone in it, without a finger in it,
comes and shouts without a mouth, without a tongue, without a throat.
Nevertheless its steps can be heard,
and its clothing makes a hushed sound like a tree.

I am not sure, I understand only a little, I can barely see,
but it seems to me that its singing is the color of wet violets,
of violets in the country, in the earth,
because the face of death is green,
and the expression on the face of death is green,
with the penetrating dampness of a violet leaf,
and the somber color of embittered winter.

But death also passes through the world dressed as a broom,
lapping the floor, looking for dead bodies,
death is inside the broom,
the broom is the tongue of death searching for corpses,
it is the needle of death, looking for thread.

Death is inside the folding cots,
it spends its life sleeping on the slow mattresses,
in the black blankets, and suddenly breathes out,
blows out a mournful sound that fills the sheets,
and the beds go sailing toward a port,
where death is waiting, dressed as an admiral.


I made this translation after I read two other translations and felt I was missing something. The two translations differed in that one translator seemed concerned to put the poem into the normalest possible English, whereas the other (who was Robert Bly) allowed much of the Spanish syntax to remain – he always tried to find English equivalents for the Spanish syntax, even at the cost of more wordiness.
This is my own translation, which is not based on Bly’s, but is close to it, because Bly and I have the same basic approach of trying to convey the Spanish music.

Nada Pero Muerte, Pablo Neruda (This file is a little corrupt. Some words in English, for some reason)
Hay los cementerios que son solos,
sepulcros por completo de los huesos que no hacen un sonido,
el corazón que se mueve a través de un túnel,
en él oscuridad, oscuridad, oscuridad,
como un naufragio morimos el entrar nosotros mismos,
como si nos ahogábamos dentro de nuestros corazones,
como si vivimos cayendo de la piel en el alma.
Y hay cadáveres,
pies hechos de la arcilla fría y pegajosa,
la muerte está dentro de los huesos,
como raspar donde no hay perros,
viniendo hacia fuera de campanas en alguna parte, de sepulcros en alguna parte,
crecimiento en el aire húmedo como los rasgones de la lluvia.
Veo a veces solamente
ataúdes debajo de la vela,
emprendiendo los muertos pálidos, con las mujeres que tienen pelo muerto,
con los panaderos que son tan blancos como ángeles,
y las muchachas jóvenes pensativas casaron con los públicos del notario,
ataúdes que navegan encima del río vertical de los muertos,
el río de la púrpura oscura,
la mudanza contra la corriente con las velas completó por el sonido de la muerte,
llenado por el sonido de la muerte que es silencio.
La muerte llega entre todo ese sonido
como un zapato sin pie en él, como un juego sin hombre en él,
vienen y los golpes, usando un anillo sin piedra en ella, sin
dedo en él,
viene y grita sin boca, sin la lengüeta, sin
garganta.
Sin embargo sus pasos pueden ser oídos
y su ropa hace un sonido hushed, como un árbol.
No soy seguro, yo entiendo solamente un poco, yo puedo ver apenas,
pero se parece a mí que el su cantar tiene el color de violetas húmedas,
de las violetas que están en el país en la tierra,
porque la cara de la muerte es verde,
y la muerte de la mirada da es verde,
con la humedad penetrante de una hoja violeta
y el color del somber del invierno embittered.
Pero la muerte también pasa a través del mundo vestido como escoba,
traslapando el piso, buscando cuerpos muertos,
la muerte está dentro de la escoba,
la escoba es la lengüeta de la muerte que busca los cadáveres,
es la aguja de la muerte que busca el hilo de rosca.
La muerte es interior los cots que doblan:
pasa su vida que duerme en los colchones lentos,
en las mantas negras, y respira repentinamente hacia fuera:
sopla fuera de un sonido mournful que hinche las hojas,
y las camas van a navegar hacia un puerto
donde está el esperar la muerte, vestido como un almirante.

Monday, February 5, 2018

Villanelle: Hunter With Dog

Stars shining brightly in Orion’s belt,
but clouds are covering the sky for me—
breath of innocence no longer felt.
Watching from this Mississippi height,
I know lights shine up there that I can't see,
sister-stars whose very names mean belt
Alnitak, Minetka—who spells them right?—
but both spell belt, the instruments agree,
And Alnilam—pearly innocence—faintly felt;
or not innocent at all—cards dealt,
so holy, fair, and wise are we,
we cling, suspended from the sky’s wide belt,
and stellar winds convey to fated bight
our life-boat foundering in the dire sea—
odor of innocence no longer smelt.
Dark mother whispering, Good night! Good night!
in my new-found eternity, joining me.
Stars burning ashen in Orion’s belt.
Innocence no later lost than felt!

I Ching 46. Growing Upward

A cow for six beans?
Stupid Jack!
But the stalk grows upwards.
Jack steals gold.
Jack steals the hen that lays golden eggs.
Jack kills the giant and marries the girl.—
No one cares that Jack's hands
will always stink of giant's blood.

Saturday, February 3, 2018

Love #3 (More Thoughts on "I Love You")

*
Not to love, so much
as to be belovéd. I
am the gifted one.

*

The words, “I love you,”
might sound too indiscreet, so
we just don’t say them.

*
It joys me to say
“I love you.” Are you joyed too?—
Joy our only wish.

Friday, February 2, 2018

Love #2 Fibs

“I
love
you.” But
that is so
annoying! What do
you want me to do about it?
I
love
you, so
I want you
to give me succor
for all the anguish of my heart.
I
love
you, so
please receive
this poem-garland,
weaving my endless devotion!
“I
love
you”—my
demand, my
determination
that you respond, “I love you too.”

I
love
you—See,
I trick you
into giving me
the gun I’ll use to shoot myself.
I
love
you. In
your heart—so
dark to me—lives a
wish perhaps that I might say it.

Thursday, February 1, 2018

The Imaginary Man, Nicanor Parra

The imaginary man
lives in an imaginary mansion
surrounded by imaginary trees
on the shore of an imaginary river
From the walls which are imaginary
hang old imaginary paintings
un-reparable imaginary cracks
that represent imaginary acts
performed in imaginary worlds
in imaginary times and places
Every afternoon imaginary afternoons
hop up the imaginary stairs
to look over the imaginary balcony
at imaginary scenery
that consists of an imaginary valley
surrounded by imaginary hills
Imaginary shadows come
by an imaginary road
singing imaginary songs
to the death of the imaginary sun
And on nights of the imaginary moon 
dream of the imaginary woman
who gave their imaginary love
and start to feel that same pain again
that same imaginary pleasure
and throbs again
the heart of the imaginary man.