Friday, December 8, 2017

O Lord, Thou Pluckest Me Out (Mark 1:19)

Armaut Daniel in Dante’s Purgatorio, quoted in T.S. Eliot, The Wasteland

O Lord, Thou fuckest me up, Master Joseph Verdi the Grease

Today, an ontology of Mend.
Jesus the tailor, mending
our shirts of flame.
So this is about Purgatory, isn’t it? So many
women on Facebook mourning or trying to save
disgraced men!
Purgatory, the soothing bath
from which we wish never
to be plucked!
We are damaged,
broken beyond repair,
worthless offenders!
Crow by the river cawing with a boy’s voice.
Boy crying in the basement forever,
because “There’s no talking to Dad.”
My father is dead. I think he loved me,
but that didn’t keep him
from making me take my pants down for his stick.
There are mothers decorating for Christmas.
There are women who may never be mothers
because they were fucked by their fathers.
How do you mend a broken heart?
How do you keep the rain
from falling down?
To mend what has been broken,
we might mourn and punish ourselves
our entire lives long.
But when he had gone a little farther thence,
Jesus saw James, the son of Zebedee, and John his brother,
who were also in the ship, mending their nets.


Poems for Advent 2017