Sunday, May 10, 2020

Guilt as Innocence

How do you put your regrets to rest?
If you completely feel your culpability, will they go away?
Will you again feel blessed?

I put that theory to the test
nearly every day:
I try to stun my regrets to rest

by savoring their bitter taste,
offering myself to be their prey—
feeling almost blessed

as the snake of regret invades the nest
of my self-regard; or, I erect a lonely grave
for each regret to rest

within, and house its ghost.
Never not obsessed, I pray
for more and more guilt to help me feel blessed


again. How do I know when I’ve really confessed
my sins to God?—
When my regrets are at rest
and I feel blessed.